urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:frominside0utfrominside0utfrominside0utfrominside0ut2006-09-24T05:23:24Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:frominside0ut:993frominside0ut @ 2006-09-24T01:23:002006-09-24T05:23:24Z2006-09-24T05:23:24Z"i'm surrounded by liars everywhere i turn. i'm surrounded by imposters everywhere i turn. i'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere i turn. <em>am i the only one to notice?</em> <em>i can't be the only one who's learned. </em>i don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately." -- <strong>gavin degraw.<br /> <br /> </strong>humans are really lousy beings. we're so selfish and greedy that it's despicable. funny how issues become problems ONLY when it has direct correlation to the person involved. and as soon as that person is able to get out of that 'problem,' it's no longer issue. it's not like the issue grew wings and took off. it's still there. we as humans just choose to sweep the issue under the rug and proclaim there is no problem. <strong>why are we so selfish and greedy? </strong>i'm so ashamed. just watching it unfold infront of me, having no power to change things makes me feel so unclean and gross. <strong>to protect ourselves, we hurt others in turn. </strong>defence mechanism? you could argue that, but i say its just selfishness. we're too important to be hurt, therefore others can hurt in our place. put that pride aside. put that comfort zone away. go out there with your heart on your sleeve. give it your best, you just might enjoy yourself in the process. and if you trip along the way, fight off the pain and get back on your feet. try again. and again. and if it really doesn't work out, at least you can say to yourself that 'you've tried' and not just once, but many times. don't back off without a fight, that's just cowardly. and if you're a coward, you have no right whatsoever to complain in the first place.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:frominside0ut:687frominside0ut @ 2006-09-18T15:23:002006-09-18T19:28:51Z2006-09-18T19:30:14Zi should be doing homework. but i'm secretly hoping that if i stare hard enough at my homework, it'll get scared and run away. <br /><strong><br />pee.essssss: </strong><em>vincci</em>, i think my LJ is a bit bland and ugly. haha im gonna need a layout - i'm thinking something hotttttttttttttttt. something i can stare out.<br /><strong><br />pee.essssss.essssss: </strong><em>vincci</em>, my hair's really dry. i need something to fix it up. since you're in hairstyling class, i need you to pay lotsa attention and figure out what really helps. haha and then let me know. its really gross. its like hay. i think if i stood next to a horse, it'll start chewing my hair, thinking its hay. besides, it's almost the same color. well maybe a lot darker, but what the heck.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:frominside0ut:266frominside0ut @ 2006-09-17T16:14:002006-09-17T20:39:44Z2006-09-18T00:53:28Zmy xanga account was getting overtly publicized. there were lots of people. so i decided to move, a place where i can start all-over. a place to be true to myself, from inside out.